When it came to self-defeat, I was undefeated.
I took every opportunity to rob myself of happiness, prevent progress, and slap
my own face. I was a tyrant to myself, and I thought
Being locked in your head makes it hard to be social. I should know.
If I was around people I didn’t know, I would feel like an unwelcome stranger. I
looked perfectly
I have something to admit.
I don’t know if I’m addicted to the internet, or if everything I do is confined
to it. If I am addicted, then I want control
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I was twenty-four years old, and I humiliated myself.
I don’t remember exactly
This is what social anxiety and self-denial look like. And this is what you
should never, ever do. No matter how shy you are.
I took a leap in 2018. I went on
> “It’s here. It’s there. It’s everywhere. Tears soak each card the dealer’s
dealt. Time taught me to see every second as heaven even though they’re
perfectly disguised
I’ve seen five therapists in the last ten years. But who’s counting, right?
I have some understanding of what it’s like to not find the right therapist.
Their job is
Change is pain.
It’s the truth. When you decide to change, you risk losing your friends, your
financial security, your reputation, your comfort, and your wellbeing. What if
the people you care
Did you know they still make polaroid cameras? I had no idea. Apparently social
media hasn't blotted them out yet.
I figured they had gone the way of the VCR. Why
Some people walk through life so petrified of others they can hardly breathe.
That's social anxiety.
Here’s how I always felt it. Maybe you can relate:
Before I spoke with
Mindfulness is overrated. Focusing is better.
Kidding (sort of).
Vipassana
[https://mindworks.org/blog/what-is-vipassana-meditation/#:~:text=Vipassana%20is%20usually%20translated%20as,and%20our%20perception%20of%20things.]
(mindfulness) mediation involves placing your attention on
How do you help a friend whose mental health is starting to crumble? Do you use
tough love, or do you just listen?
I came across an image
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Are you an ambitious person? The type who’s always chasing a goal and trying to
improve yourself?
If self improvement is your thing, then let me ask you: when you fail, how